I woke up early this morning in tears. We had received an email back from David's client saying that her decision remained final. I felt angry and disappointed and all that I could think was how could anyone care about perfect cabinets in a world where there are broken children?
I came upstairs to pray and the tears kept coming. What were we going to do? How could we adopt R. when we would have to use every single penny that we had for this project? Would we have to completely start over? Would this delay her adoption even more? I wept for a long time.
But then our dear, precious Father reminded me of something..He reminded me that He was the One who gave us the money (miraculously) in the first place. The week after we had said "yes" to adopting R., we found out that we could get back taxes from past adoptions with the tax refund. We hadn't qualifed for the credit, because we didn't pay enough taxes, but we had no idea that the refund could also be carried over from past years.
Immediately after He brought this to mind, His overwhelming peace came over me. How could I be worried about money? Hadn't God provided for every single child that He had brought into this family? And then I remembered the verses that He had given to me last week. "Do not be worried about your life...who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life...seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself." (Matthew 6)
Last week, when I read these verses, I knew that He was asking me to trust Him in that particular circumstance, but now I realize that these verses were also given in preparation for this time. We may have zero money for R.'s adoption, but our God owns all of the earth's riches! I don't have any idea how He will provide all that is needed, but I know that He will! And it will be just one more story that we will be able to share with R. one day about the faithfulness of our God in bringing her home to us.
God also reminded me that I know nothing about David's client's heart and life and that I may not judge her. I must bless her! So, would you bless her today, as well? Would you say prayers of blessing and love over her life? May she know the love of God on this day!
Dear friends, thank you so much for your kind words and especially for your prayers yesterday. I know without a doubt that God used them to give me a new perspective today. We'd still appreciate your prayers as David needs to finish resolving some things today. But, however it turns out, we know that our God is in control. He is good and He takes care of all of our tomorrows!
I came upstairs to pray and the tears kept coming. What were we going to do? How could we adopt R. when we would have to use every single penny that we had for this project? Would we have to completely start over? Would this delay her adoption even more? I wept for a long time.
But then our dear, precious Father reminded me of something..He reminded me that He was the One who gave us the money (miraculously) in the first place. The week after we had said "yes" to adopting R., we found out that we could get back taxes from past adoptions with the tax refund. We hadn't qualifed for the credit, because we didn't pay enough taxes, but we had no idea that the refund could also be carried over from past years.
Immediately after He brought this to mind, His overwhelming peace came over me. How could I be worried about money? Hadn't God provided for every single child that He had brought into this family? And then I remembered the verses that He had given to me last week. "Do not be worried about your life...who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life...seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself." (Matthew 6)
Last week, when I read these verses, I knew that He was asking me to trust Him in that particular circumstance, but now I realize that these verses were also given in preparation for this time. We may have zero money for R.'s adoption, but our God owns all of the earth's riches! I don't have any idea how He will provide all that is needed, but I know that He will! And it will be just one more story that we will be able to share with R. one day about the faithfulness of our God in bringing her home to us.
God also reminded me that I know nothing about David's client's heart and life and that I may not judge her. I must bless her! So, would you bless her today, as well? Would you say prayers of blessing and love over her life? May she know the love of God on this day!
Dear friends, thank you so much for your kind words and especially for your prayers yesterday. I know without a doubt that God used them to give me a new perspective today. We'd still appreciate your prayers as David needs to finish resolving some things today. But, however it turns out, we know that our God is in control. He is good and He takes care of all of our tomorrows!
6 comments:
As soon as my eyes opened this morning in bed, I began praying for this woman and that the Holy Spirit would speak to her and she would hear Him. I just KNOW that He has a plan for the money to adopt this precious child....He created her to have a family, He didn't create her to be alone in this world. I love you and you are heavy on my heart and will remain there:)
I am praying! And even though this experience is so yucky and so difficult, you are allowing it to transform you to look more and more like Jesus. You are learning on an even deeper level how absolutely trustworthy your Father is. You are learning on an even deeper level to really not judge. You are learning on an even deeper to level that God really does work all things out for good for those who love Him.
And boy are you one who loves Him.
I hate to see you suffer...but how beautiful it is to see you receive all He desires....and become all He made you to be.
Praying! So sorry for this trial, but you're right-- God is in control and things will work out. :)
Thank you for sharing your step by step journey in the Lord -- I am encouraged through it. Yes, through how you share each step of learning through this difficult time.
Praying for you & for R. & your family & this woman.
With love, Kathleen
Sometime I need to share the miracle of our adoption fund ... yep, He still is in the miracle business, you can count on it. He will provide all you need...take a deep breath of his amazing love. :) ~Renae
Still praying!!!!! You are heavy on my heart so I just wanted to pop over and tell ya I love you:)
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