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Thursday, August 21, 2014

Man.
It's easy to get into a rut.
It's beyond simple to make excuses for lazy behavior.
And the funny thing is; I never even knew that I was doing it!
 
I thought that I worked pretty hard.
But, the reality is, I've been in a 28 year rut.
And I had no idea!
 
I became a Christian when I was 15 years old. I pretty quickly figured out that memorizing Bible passages didn't come naturally for me. But, instead of pressing in and trusting the Lord to give me the ability and desire, I just accepted my "fate" and determined that I just wasn't any good at memorizing scripture. And that became my excuse.

Until last week.

I had checked out this little book about praying the scriptures over our children...

 
I had an inkling that it would be a significant book in my life, but as I began reading, a familiar voice inside my mind started playing the same old tune:
"Oh, I'll never be able to remember this. I'm not good at memorizing scripture."
I sighed in discontent and almost set the book aside.
 
But then a different voice began to speak.
 
Sweet child, how long will you let that be your excuse?
You are only 43 years old. You have half of your life in front of you.
You can still become good at memorizing My Word.
You can change your perspective, dear one.
I love you deeply.
I will help you.
 
And that was it: a lifetime of excuses gone in an instant.
(Because when God speaks, what else is there left to do, but believe and respond?)
 
I'm giving up laziness. I've stopped listening to lies. I'm getting out of this rut and believing God for all that He has promised. I cannot wait to look back, ten years from now, to see what He has done. With God's grace I will become good at memorizing His Word. Thank God we're never too old to learn something new!
 

The Battle Belongs to the Lord

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

A couple of nights ago, I had a dream about Sergey. It was our first meeting, and in my dream, the time with him was tender and sweet. So, it was surprising when I woke up with this 80's worship song running through my mind:
 
 
"The Battle Belongs To The Lord"
In heavenly armour we'll enter the land
The battle belongs to the Lord
No weapon that's fashioned against us shall stand
The battle belongs to the Lord

We sing glory and honor
Power and strength to the Lord
[repeat]

The power of darkness comes in like a flood
The battle belongs to the Lord
He's raised up a standard, the power of His blood
The battle belongs to the Lord

When your enemy presses in hard do not fear
The battle belongs to the Lord
Take courage my friend, your redemption is near
The battle belongs to the Lord
 
It was a surprising song, in light of my dream, but on the other hand, not so surprising, considering all of the circumstances surrounding Sergey's adoption.
 
This one has been hard, my friends.
 
Along with the initial problem of Sergey not being allowed to come to the US for hosting, we have also encountered crazy delays, having to re-do our paperwork multiple times, and opposition almost every step of the way. At moments, it has caused us to question whether or not we were on the right path. But, as we have prayed, we have become more and more convinced that the enemy of our souls would love for us to give up on Sergey. Our Glorious Savior, on the other hand, never will (and because we love Him and long to be like Him, neither will we!).
 
 
So that's why, when I went to my first DHL service center to mail our dossier, and they told me that they no longer mail things DHL, I could actually begin to see the humor of the situation. And when at the second service center (in a very scary part of town), I had to literally yell above the volume of the music playing inside the building ("No. That's okay. If you're not sure that it will make it there, I think that I should probably go somewhere else."), I could laugh out loud while exiting the building.
 
I could laugh because I know who will win this battle.
I know who already has the victory, my friends.
 
But, I also know that we need you. We need each one of you, our precious friends, to pray along with us. We need you to pray for Sergey, that his heart would be kept in peace and joy while he waits for us. We need you to pray for our family, that we would continue to trust in the Lord and not get  discouraged by all of these crazy delays. We need you to pray against the powers of darkness, that would do everything conceivable to keep Sergey right where he is at.
 
We need you, dear friends.
Your prayers matter.
Thank you, for fighting this battle along with our family, and ultimately, with our Lord.
He will be victorious!

MN love...

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Welcome notes on our pillows, a lunch date with Aunt Angela for the big kids, an art class for Lily, park play, library visiting, next door pool playing, and lots of games for the littles, worshiping at Aunt Angela's church, a visit to Grandpa's gravesite with tears and sweet words, Uncle Phil and Aunt Annette stopping to say hello, lots of driving practice for Adam, a musical for the girls and the World Cup for the boys, How to Train Your Dragon 2 for Dad and the kids, lunch and shopping for Mom and Grandma, lots of good food conversation and laughter, and a precious time had by all.
 







 
I am so very grateful for our time in MN this year.
We are blessed.

happy, happy

Monday, June 16, 2014

Happy Father's Day to the most selfless, giving, fun-loving daddy that I know.
happy, happy
 

just pics...

Friday, June 6, 2014

As it seems my blog is being neglected, I thought I'd at least update with pictures from the past month.
 
Mr. snuggles and his daddy. How could one little boy have so much love inside of him?!!!

David, David and Adam working on the solar panels.
 
 
 
We'll be off the grid soon!
 
Adam really gets into the work!
 
A double pancake for breakfast.
 
These two...such love!

What can I say? Absolute sweetness.

Yana is so incredibly helpful. I love her servant's heart.

David's aunt and cousin came for a quick visit. It was a blessing to see them.
 
I have a blog post brewing in my mind...we'll see if it gets out of my mind and onto the screen. :)
 
 

abiding

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Several months ago, a sweet friend gave our family three large boxes of books. Among the many volumes, there were a number of little paperbacks written by Andrew Murray. Though I had read some of these gems in the past, there was one that I had not read before:
Abide in Christ.
 
I'm not sure why I picked that book out of the many possibilities on our shelves. Looking back, I have to believe that it was God's own hand that guided my hand to reach up and pull down that little volume, leafing through the pages, slipping it into my bag before I headed out for my day of prayer.
 
Prior to that time, the word abide would start my heart racing. Abide was an action word. Hearing it caused me to search within myself for something that I could do to cause myself to live fully surrendered to Him. But, as I began to read that simple book on that chilly fall afternoon, something wondrous happened. I started to see that instead of it being my job to keep myself fixed on Him, that too was His responsibility.
 
He would keep me.
He would be the one who would cause me to abide in Him.
All that I had to do was allow Him the privilege.
 
 
Oh friends, perhaps you are much wiser than me and have learned this lesson long ago. But, for my heart, it was a revelation: Nothing that I could do would cause me to abide in Christ, but in surrendering even my ability to keep myself, I would find true rest in Him.
 
And dear ones, as I have begun to live this out over the past few months, He has proved Himself faithful! Some days, it is easy. I have an uninterrupted time with the Lord in the morning, the kids are doing great, I am able to interact with my neighbors and the weather is beautiful. My heart freely dwells on the Lord and it is easy to abide in Him. On other days, however, relationships are difficult, financial matters are stressful, parenting is overwhelming, and the list could go on and on. It's a temptation (ridiculous as it may be) to take matters into my own hands and make a plan as to how I can overcome the world!

Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately), it never works. Instead of overcoming, I begin to experience anxiety and fear. Through God's grace, it is becoming more and more clear to me that those difficult days are the ones in which I need to lean into Him even more intentionally and let Him do the work of keeping my heart surrendered to His heart. When I remember how helpless I am before Him, and simply trust in His ability, He can work wonders!

"If I can say, 'Jesus is to me at this moment all that God gave Him to be: life, and strength, and peace,' as I say it, I have only to hold still, rest, and realize it, and for that moment I have what I need. As my faith sees how I am in Christ through God and takes the place in Him my Father has provided, my soul can peacefully settle down: now I abide in Christ." (Andrew Murray)
 
Andrew Murray and his precious book have become dear friends to me over the past few months. They lead me into the presence of Jesus, who keeps me in Him and who is forever faithful. Truly, I abide in Christ today through no merit of my own, but only because of His great goodness and kindness to me! Oh, how beautiful He is! Oh how wondrous it is to abide in Christ!
 

a joyful heart

Thursday, May 15, 2014

A joyful heart is good medicine!
 
 
 Kaikai is recovering well after his tendon transfer surgery. Oh how grateful I am for the special relationship between these two. It truly is good medicine!

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