I know the end of the story...

Monday, November 14, 2011

I'll come out from the wilderness,
and I'll be leaning on my Beloved...

Last week was tough.
For days in a row, I lost sight of my Beloved.
My faith was weak, and I didn't know how much more waiting I could take.
I told my dear, patient Father that He had to do something...I didn't want to wait anymore...I didn't want to travel this hard road...I didn't want to wonder...I wanted to know that R. would be home soon...I needed to know.

On Saturday night I had a dream.
In the dream there were wolves and there was fear.
But there was One who stood before the wolves,
and with a gentle touch,
pushed them away.

Just a gentle touch
and they were gone.

Then there were sentries...
angels standing guard.

The wolves would not return.

I woke up and knew that the Lord was near.

Then, at church, our pastor spoke about peace...
giving all of our anxiety to our Lord.
He spoke about Jesus, who slept in the boat, while there was a fierce storm outside.
When the disciples woke Him, He spoke such simple, gentle words...
Peace. Be still.

There was no striving.
There was no anxiety.

He was near
and all anxiety,
all fear,
all tumult

So, now I remember...

I know the end of the story.
And at the end of the story, Jesus is right beside me,
and that is enough.
Peace. Be still.
Be still.

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Naomi said...

There is not a day goes by that I do not think about your wait and how hard it must be. The Lord has chosen you because He knows you will rely on Him for strength and you will not give up. He knew this would be hard and He is waiting to carry you during this time.

Praying for you this morning!

The Byrd's Nest said...

Oh my sweet friend, you are in my prayers everyday. The waiting is just so terrible, especially for your little one. Praying for peace and stillness...He is there my friend. I love you!

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Kim said...

Beautiful story. Trust me when I say I understand the waiting, the unknowns, and the future. But God gives us peace...not sure how, but when I cast it ALL at His feet because I am unable to bear it...He picks it up and makes it beautiful in His time. Thinking of you and praying too!!

holly bowser said...

Keep hanging in there dear sister! I know that this is hard (anyone in waiting knows how hard it can be), but so thankful that you have the peace of the Father to give you contentment and to calm your fears. I look forward to celebrating with you when your sweet one comes home! Hugs & Blessings!

manyheartsonefamily said...

Praying! Grateful that our Heavenly Father hears our prayers and reminds us He is there and carrying us during these trying times.

Jean said...

Okay I need this- big time... I am bleeding anxiety and I need HIS peace! I want our TA- yesterday!BUT today the Lord showed me why we need to wait- so I need to find my peace in Him and trust!

The wait is grueling and you have had your share of waiting. Saying prayers for you- that things start moving faster.

Your dream was incredible- no worries- HE is in control!

motherimperfect said...

In one of my journals I wrote that the phrase "Be not afraid" is the most often used phrase in the Bible. I cannot verify this now, because I didn't site my source. But I remember it often.

Here are some other quotes from that particular journal (I was having a hard year).

"Sometimes it is best when the plane is delayed." me. I meant this to apply both to my many business flights back then and to some circumstances in my life. We just don't always know what God is helping us avoid by delaying things. It may be the biggest blessing but we just can't know why because we only see through a dimly light mirror. So whenever I take a wrong turn now or am stuck in traffic, I try to tell myself that I just don't know what God was having me avoid, but I am sure it is something.

Another quote--"You are exactly where you are supposed to be." This one keeps coming to me tons lately.

"Worry is the opposite of gratitude; it is the failure to understand that you have been, and will be, provided for each day." me

"Worry is not a preventative action." Not sure who said this but pretty sure it wasn't me.

"It has been my repeated experience that when you said to life calmly and firmly (but very firmly!), 'I trust you; do what you must,' life has an uncanny way of responding to your need." Olga Ilyin

"Eucharisto--thanksgiving--always precedes the miracle." Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts

My prayers go out to you with this breath, with this thanks. We are exactly where we are supposed to be. God is sovereign. He has it perfectly planned. He already knows his plans for you, for R. And they are good. And the timing may be preventing some larger mayhem.

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