"May God break my heart so completely that the whole world falls in." -Mother Teresa
How can I ask for the whole world when I am only at the very beginning of truly learning to love those around me?
The whole world started, for me, with those who are innocent and easy to love.
I am beginning to see that the whole world includes those who have been deeply harmed and have not yet found healing in Him.
Off in the distance, I can see another part of the whole world and it scares me.
I see that the whole world includes the two tattooed men who are yelling obscenities and punching each other right outside our window. The whole world is also the mother in Ind*a who breaks the neck of her newborn baby, because that baby is a girl. The whole world is the orphanage director in eastern Europe who sells the young girls in her care to a pimp when they are close to aging-out. The whole world is the couple in the US who sues a doctor for the "wrongful birth" of their beautiful baby, because he is born with down syndrome. The whole world even includes the father who sexually abuses his daughter for years.
The whole world is not only the oppressed, it is the oppressor.
And though our Father's heart can encompass the abuser, I do not even begin to understand how I can let the enemy into my heart.
How can I ask for the whole world?
I can ask because more than anything, I want to have the heart of our Father. I can ask because even though I cannot, in my own power, let these people into my heart, God can give me a new heart...a heart of flesh and not a heart of stone.
It may take time, but I know that as I pray Mother Teresa's beautiful/terrible prayer, He will answer.
He will grant me the impossible:
My heart will break,
and even the enemy, will come in.