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Thursday, October 13, 2011

Sometimes I get tired of that phrase...
finding the balance


Sometimes I want to give my life away so completely
that I burn out for Him.

Sometimes I get weary of wondering
whether this ministry
or that sort of giving
will tax our family too much.

Sometimes I want to give it all...every single breath.
And I want my family to give every single breath.

Sometimes I want to stop considering whether or not we can
handle more children.

I want to adopt twenty-five children.
Twenty-five
beautiful, precious, messy, loud children
and
I want to move to India
or Africa
or Haiti
and
give everything we own away.

And the thing is...
God does ask me to give it all.
He asks me to give every single bit.
He doesn't ask me to find the balance.
He tells me to give my life away.

But, He also tells me that I am human.
I am not God.
I cannot do everything.
And to think that I can is
quite frankly
ridiculous

So, instead of asking how I can find the balance in my life,
I am asking how I can give my life away
completely
as a human being
who is finite
and who lives in this place
right here
right now.

(Anyone care to join me in losing our balance?)

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8 comments:

No Greater Love said...

Absolutely!

Love you,
Mer

Chad and Kristy said...

Just beautiful! I am right there with you:)

Nikolyn said...

agreed. Good thing there was no way for you and I to ever be married. We'd be so broke and in over our heads. My sensible husband keeps me grounded.....but I keep stretching for those clouds I long to live in. I'm with you, Sarah.....completely. But I'd just settle for a nice even 6 kids.....holding out for my last 2 to come from India. :)

Gwen said...

I've been thinking a lot about this lately, too. Must be a common thread, because another blog I follow posted something very similar. Hope you have some good news from India soon!

http://keirajoy07.blogspot.com/2011/10/surviving-or-thriving.html

Shonni said...

Ohh, I love this. I always hated the whole “finding balance” thing too!!!

Kathleen @ Kath Ink said...

is this why I cannot find balance???...i'm suppose to be giving my life away...hmmmm...great food for fodder

The Byrd's Nest said...

Hmmm....interesting thoughts. I will join you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mrs. L. said...

Wow, I was just thinking about this "topic" just recently. Glad that I'm not alone and to be reminded that I am human and am not asked to do everything! ( it is a ridiculous idea!!)

Thanks for being open to how you feel, glad that we're in the same boat.

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